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Why Me...?

 

I try to swim through those vacuum… pushing that lid ajar… but I cannot go much far… the harder I try to be a peace with life the more it feels like a war…

I know what people think about me…, they have not told themselves, but I know by the way they talk about others in front of me…

But I know for sure nothing is fake… when I am with them all the events of life are true as my every breath… in those moments…

Then comes a time, not sad or upset… but everything turns inset… and for outer world I become mean and mess… moving away from one phase of life to another like a sunset…

I tried every time… not to fall into the ocean of my worldly matters… to be brave facing all the odd nothing works… nothing saves…

Now it’s a final goodbye… to all those who have walked along with me and the one who have made me walk, taught me to walk… now my cameo in your life won’t be entertained…

What good am I to anyone or to anything? But if there is God and if he listens… then I want to ask one thing… “You could have made thousands of butterflies instead of me” why me?

Now there are expectations to make something out of this life… but I don’t know “What do they mean by life?” Every passing year putting me close to grave… but people want me to think of future and all the things that I can have…

I don’t lack ambitions… but I differ with the societal missions… which create great confusion… and puts me into illusion…

SO let me be alone… I had known it already… that for any human relation I was never ready… and if I do have a bond, it won’t be steady…

Not a good son… nor a brother… neither a reliable friend… its better to end everything… and have nothing not even a hope for new thing…

I still ask the same question why me when you could have grasshopper hopping… couple of birds crimping why me? Where I can’t bear this life anymore… and its harder to even sing a song…  

 

 

  

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