Love Live Life

They looked into each other eyes… after a tight hug… bloodshot eyes… trying harder than ever to control those tears… For the first time in months, the rush hour of the metro station was mute, when the truth came out of his mouth, when she kept her chin on her hand on the railing if those stairs… The almost full moon night… witness the conversation of the two friends who were almost to be lovers… She looked at him, when he looked away, narrating the tale which was unknown to her… which he kept hiding and always avoiding… where his action could be judged, he thought… and this relation would end in draught, he feared… “Why you never said this?” she asked, then he looked at her… those big pretty eyes turned watery…   her voice was shaky… where he thought how beautiful she looked even when she cried… When they were close, wrapped in each other’s arm… when he was able to breath her in… and she felt him like the reason to be with him… where their hearts where breathing in rhythm...

What has come upon? Have I brought this on me… Should I call it fate…? Is this something that which they say destiny…? I don’t know for myself… that which they are calling as life… has become harder than a rock… that which we called fun seems worth none… Why such self-pity… why such self-hatred… why stepping on the right stone… that mentality... it can’t be honed… Everything around… some of all those things which were once desired… yet walking unconscious in the name of subconscious… Illusions are formed, confusions are grown… yet the cloud of sanity does not pour the clarity… and life is pricking thrones with all the vanity… What hurts is the inability with all this mobility unaware of how and where to stop… but trying to hold those spokes of life… the harder they strike…     We are holding something of the past… nothing at last… sitting among the debris of hopes, expectation and desire... my dreams seem so vast… everything turning unexpectedly so fast… Still th...

  If I could love you again, I would surely love you right… holding you tight after each fight…. Loosing you have made me realize that to my sky you were the only light… I am doing fine… learning, trying to walk along the straight line… I wish I could go back in the time and to make you wait and to make you mine… I could play my every single dime… I still remember the day when I first saw you… bright like the morning sunshine… our eyes locked, and everything was lost… at least even for that one moment it felt that you were mine… The days have melted into weeks and the weeks evaporated and formed the clouds of years… all what I hold is the same fear… we are not together as such… will we ever be “us.” No, not someone of your hue… not even someone like you… but even today in my every prayer I only ask for you… Not the one who finds me sweet… not the one who finds me cute. Not the one for whom I am good looking. Not the one who are only there for hooking up… but the one with ...

  What to do now? Standing, somewhere not sure about which way I have come everything looks same… Couple of years, had the courage, the dreams, the feelings and the emotions only the action was what I lack… Scattered are the stars, stretched a far… where trying to join these dots to make a celestial arc… Bonds are melted away… the ones who were dear talking to them is a new fear… Along the path, have reached such a spot… where all these worldly colors which were thrown are accepted by self and the one which were that of mine are being shelved… Clarity is dream, and the dreams are not even coming into the dreams… way ahead of what once reality was, the past is still beautiful and future still unknown… What is needed is to show the urgency… what are we doing? And what not, we are doing just for the sake of currency… Everyone is trying to make you the way they think one should be, but there’s hardly any luck and time where a self can think, feel the way it wants to be… Who...